You get a look at what you think you've accomplished through the eyes of someone you respect - and realize that the green morning you'd had in your heart is a mirage. The reality is a cold barren evening, with a night that won't see a morning.
And maybe it's time to quit.
And why not?
I'd like to say it's because God spoke to me, either personally, or through His Word, Or that a song on K-LOVE or Family Life Radio reminded me that we're all important, and beloved of the Father.
Nope. That's not it.
Maybe it's pride? No matter what anyone says, I know I'm good?
No.
What it is - is sheer dumb mulish obstinacy. I said a long time ago that I wouldn't quit, and I just won't. I don't care if God notices or not, I don't care if the work's any good or not. I'll keep going because.
Just because.
You're awesome, you know that, right?
ReplyDeleteThanks - I'm pretty tired, Jennifer.
DeleteOne more day, one more hour, one more minute...she needs all you can give her.
DeleteI'll keep trying my best. But I can see heaven from here.
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