I thought that by strength of character, will, and physical endurance I could burn the cancer out of my body, and emerge triumphant (and with a book deal and national TV interviews for having won through a miracle).
Sure I'd give the nod to God, but in my heart of hearts...
...it was mostly me, baby.
But it's not true, and barring a miracle worked from Above, I'm not getting out of this.
I won't say my own qualities didn't help in getting me this far; they did, though it was more God and less me than I might have wanted to admit.
But now, there's no way forward without His help. I can stand in place.
For a while longer.
Lord, when I call to You,
will You hear, and come?
This long game is nearly through
and I am sore undone.
I place such hope and confidence
in my strength and pride,
and now that I have no defence
will appeal be thus denied?
Lord, I was trained to stand,
but I know I should have knelt,
for only by Your mighty hand
could I won that hand was dealt.
I looked within, and found no part
of me, but just Your beating heart.
Music from Queen, with the somehow fitting We Are The Champions.
Thanks to Carol Ashby, Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart is back on Kindle, and will be available in paperback soon.
Friends are everything. I couldn't have done it.
Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.