It was as much s I could do, sitting upright and getting from minute to minute...and sometimes I could not even do that.
Only, lying down I couldn't breathe.
And I re-learned a very important lesson - sometimes all you can do really IS all you can do.
I was once a high achiever, and considered relaxation, not to mention vacations, a waste of time. Four hours of sleep was plenty, and I could go, go, go for the rest of the day.
Things have changed. I sleep less, but pain and tiredness proscribe movement to the point where just being able to pay attention for a full houir-long Star Trek rerun is quite an achievement.
I was tempted to compare me-now with me-then, and there were times when I felt so very diminished in my worth.
But then came the epiphany - and it is re-delivered from On High when needed.
As long as I am doing my best, it's enough.
There are no winners and losers here; he who dies with the most toys, or the most completed projects, doesn't win.
And what he takes with him is the love that was given and returned.
The love that had to start with a gentleness to himself.
Love thy neighbour as thyself is not an empty phrase.
It may well be a requirement for being able to appreciate Heaven.
Still hoping to get the new and improved version of Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart up and running in the near future. Just haven't had the energy to do it yet...but if you would like to read it, please say so in your comment and I'd be glad to send you a PDF (which should fit your Kindle).
Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.
If you can, please do leave a comment. I am trying to answer all, and I am failing, but please know this - I read and treasure each one.
Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.