Your Dying Spouse 320 - At The End Of All Things

And now I am past bravado, and past surrender.

There are simply no words for these days save that they have to be endured, and I have to pull myself to my feet when I least want to.

There are so many cliches. I'm Jim Bowie at the Alamo, waiting for the Mexicans to come through the door to my sickroom.

I'm John Basilone on the edge of the Guadalcanal perimeter, waiting for the Japanese in the night.

And I'm Jesus on the Via Dolorosa.

But the reality is that I'm none of this. I'm just me, trying to keep my bearings and my balance, and trying to remember what I need to do next.

Until I can sit down again, on the floor, my back propped against a wall.

Or lie on the floor, on my side, knees clutched to my chest.

There is no grandeur here, no far-reaching honourifics.

It's a horrible, vile mess, and it must be a mistake on someone's part, somewhere.

This was not supposed to be my life.

But actually, it was, and it is.

At the end of all things, all we're left with is our faith, and our hope, and our love. These are the imperishables, but they're ours to throw away if we choose.

It comes down to a choice, reinforced now, and reinforced again as I finish typing this sentence.

I believe in God, and in my salvation through Christ's atonement for my sins.

I have hope because Christ went before me, and rose from the dead, something witnessed by dudes who had no reason to lie...just the opposite, claiming to see a risen Lord signed their death warrants.

And I will love others as Christ loves me, to the end of my physical being and beyond. I will heedlessly spend my energy and life in handing out love, without restraint or any quid pro quo. I will become love.

The musical theme is courtesy Jim Croce, whom I suppose I shall soon meet.

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I have another blog, "Starting The Day With Grace". The focus is a grace quote from someone you might not expect (like, say Mick Jagger) and a short commentary. I hope you'll join me.

Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.

WE MADE A DIFFERENCE!

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