But the holidays are kind of hard when you're dying, too. The sentimentality that goes along ith a lot of Christmas songs and traditions can cause a sudden black wall of depression, even despair, to rise in the heart.
Maybe it's the "let's all be happy together" thing, and one feels like one's looking in through a closed window. Maybe it's memories of Christmases Past, when pain and unstoppable dry heaves (and worse) weren't a part of every moment, waking or not.
I can't remember the good Christmases. I can't remember what it was like to feel good. Or even 'ok'.
I remember faces that are missing, though. Too many.
So I'm being careful. Barb's got a Christmas special on the telly in the living room. I'm at the other end of the house, rocking out to The Digital Age.
It's a self-preservation thing.
So here's The Digital Age, with Captured.
Thanks to Carol Ashby, Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart is back on Kindle, and will be available in paperback soon.
Friends are everything. I couldn't have done it.
Marley, the canine waif from Afghanistan, whom WE helped save, has a Facebook page! Please drop by to see how happy he is today.
I continue to keep you in my prayers! And I am so thankful for the truth that you stand in, even when you are too weak to stand! Jesus is pouring life through your words. May you feel HIS life holding you still.
ReplyDeleteBettie, thank you so very much for the prayers. They are deeply felt, and deeply appreciated.
DeleteHe's here; He's holding me. I'm OK.
Praying in Texas
ReplyDeleteAnnie
Thank you so much, Annie! ((((((hugs!))))))
DeleteThinking of you and sending love your way.
ReplyDeleteLeon, I truly, truly appreciate it.
DeleteAndrew, it must be so hard, but I see you trusting God throughout this whole ordeal. You are an inspiration to all of us. Blessings and love to you and Barb! xo
ReplyDeleteGayl, please forgive my delayed reply...and thank you so much for this lovely comment!
DeleteThe harder things get, the easier it gets to trust God; not because I see my own weakness, but because I more clearly see His strength.
Blessings and love back from both of us! XO