Nonetheless, God gives me the strength to stand in the fires of hell and spit flame back into the devil's face.
This is really getting tiresome, but as long as God wants me to stand, I guess that is what I will have to do.
It does get harder to reinvent reasons and methodology to keep up my morale. It used to be, I can beat this and get well.
Then it was I can fight this for as long as I have to, and cope with the pain.
The next step back from the line in th sand was I can live honourably with this,and push myself hard to use the time I have left to good effect.
Now I spend a lot of my time doing...well, not much of anything. Blog posts are getting shorter, and participation in the blogging community more limited, because I run out of energy too fast.
There are walls that you can't scale.
I can be defiant, as related above, but that's almost all I can do.
It really does come down to Ephesians 6:13:
Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
Our faith in God's promise is our only armour, the only thing standing between us and the despair of the abyss.
It's the promise that our lives have meaning, our pain has a purpose, and that there will be a reckoning, a healing of harms.
The promise can be diluted in so many ways, by the secular messages we choose to heed, by the covetous comparison that rises in our hearts when we see others effortlessly surpassing us in the fulfillment of dreams, and in the twisted messages of some churchmen, who would have us believe that the Bible is a dynamic entity, growing to meet modern times, and that it's a support for our prosperity in this world.
So much for Jesus Christ, the same yesterday, today, and forever.
The truth is that evil was, and evil is, and that we need the full support of the Almighty to face it. We can't do this alone; we never could, and all of the modern messages and relevancy and re-interpretation don't add up to a hill of beans.
And it's not a cute game for children, with wooden swords and plastic shields and sharing on Facebook and Instagram.
It's not something for dealing with nasty bosses and wilfully malicious co-workers and malingering employees.
There's real evil out there, the kind that seeks to murder us in our homes, the kind that will invade our bodies in the form of cancer and far worse, the kind that will defeat our despairing souls.
And there is only one way to resist.
Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God...
I do ask that you be patient with my slow replies to your comments (which we treasure). I'm trying to stay caught up.
Still hoping to get the new and improved version of Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart up and running in the near future. Just haven't had the energy to do it yet...but if you would like to read it, please say so in your comment and I'd be glad to send you a PDF (which should fit your Kindle).
Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.
If you can, please do leave a comment. I am trying to answer all, and I am failing, but please know this - I read and treasure each one.
Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.