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Wednesday, June 20, 2018

Your Dying Spouse 487 - At Peace

Pain in new places, more cutting and severe.

Sylvia and Ladron, the chief service dogs, finish my meals.

And the fatigue is crushing. So much I want to do, and can't.

I am at peace with this.

I will be leaving before too long, going home. But I have been, and am doing, the very best that I can.

Music from Johnny Mathis, with Coming Home.

Please pardon my slow response to comments. I do my best, and your comments are really precious to me. Barb is answering many of them now. I'm running on fumes, if you don't mind a macho metaphor.

I'm grateful for the energy to have written this. I'm so glad Barbara's stepped in for many of my posts. I'm really not doing well at all.

Thanks to Carol Ashby, Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart is back on Kindle, and will be available in paperback soon.

Friends are everything. I couldn't have done it.

Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.


And marley has a Facebook page! Please drop by to see how happy he is today.

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  1. Right there with you in prayer, Andrew! Lifting you and Barb up to our Heavenly Father. He will meet you... and it will be a most awesome moment!

    Peace and comfort, brother. To God be the Glory.

    1. Diana, we thank you so much for the prayers. And it will be an awesome and wonderful - and fun - moment.

      To Him the Glory!

  2. Maybe I can at least help you to smile a little. I'm fascinated for all things word-like, including people's last words. Here are a few of those (some of which are likely apocryphal, but they're interesting anyway):

    Humphrey Bogart acted in over seventy films, my favorite of which is the classic Casablanca. He died in 1957, saying, “I should never have switched from Scotch to Martinis.”

    John Sedgwick was a Union Army general in the Civil War. Facing confederate snipers, his last words were “They couldn't hit an elephant at this distance” . . . but they could.

    French philosopher and writer Voltaire was known for his vehement opposition to the Christian Church. A priest at his death bed asked him to renounce Satan, to which Voltaire is rumored to have responded, “Now, now, my good man, this is not the time for making enemies.” (Bad plan, by the way.)

    Writer Oscar Wilde was legendary throughout his life for his quick wit. His last words? “My wallpaper and I are fighting a duel to the death. One or other of us has got to go.”

    On a serious note, I can't recall my father's last words. I just remember the man — the things he did and said over the years.

    Praying for you.

    1. J, I LOVE these! Thank you so much for the day-brightener!

      And thank you so much for the prayers.

  3. Awake in the night. Read Kara Tippetts' blog. I think one thing I like about reading you, reading Kara, is it seems the trust in God you show is encouraging, stirring in me... helps me in some way go, "Ok, I can do this. We can do this. We have the same, and Only God. He's/ She's doing it, leading by example. Oh, I can see God's faithfulness in this, or that." Emboldens me in my thoughts, in my mind's preparation I feel like i do for whatever it is that inevitably seems is next. Trusting Him, that He still is good, that He loves loves loves you in spite of how you physically feel in your reality. Thanks for trusting Him. In some way it protects my heart. Odd maybe. But a realization i had this morning. Maybe it's because then I feel like you have a comfort, a peace because it's hard to watch a person hurt and not be able to fix it.

  4. Andrew, those words "At Peace" say it in a "nutshell"...you have held on for so long, waiting to finish whatever it is that God has for you. You have taken us all on this journey with you; for there are so many of us that ARE with you here and now and have been for a very long time. It sounds as if you are ready for God's last mission for you...you are At Peace and waiting for Him to call you to your Home in Glory! You seem to be ready and waiting now. Yes, there will be a huge void left! Yes, you will be missed; but you will still be loved. And, you will still carry us with you in your heart; as will we carry you in ours! Love and hugs and prayers for that peace to continue!!

  5. "Home" in every context is a very good place. My dearest friend went to our house in the mtns this week (the one we've sold) and she texted me with this, "The soul of the house has left." Now, THAT soul lives here in the flat. Because the soul is us. Barbara will miss you and long for you but will keep your memory alive there with the furry babies. And, one day, my friend all of us who know Jesus will reunite with you and we will run and sing and play in the fields of heaven. O! What A Day! (((xo)))

  6. We will always remember you. You've touched so many people in so many ways.
    And someday we'll see you up there. As the old hymn says, "When we all get to Heaven what a day of rejoicing that will be!"

  7. Here's a song for you. I can't listen to it without tears because there have been many "walk on" moments in my life that have called out something deep in me to not give up. You've shown that sort of determination, to walk on no matter what. My prayers will continue. You have peace in the middle of the storm. Praises!
    I don't know if this link will work, but I hope so. "Walk On," by the Johnson Family.

  8. Pondering in the book of Ruth. Chapter 1 is full of the word return. I bless you to feel you are returning home. Father's arms ready to receive you. A celebration of your return home where the thought of you was first conceived.💝

  9. Just know you are loved, very much loved, and you will be so alright.