Victory does not lie in the healing of cancer.
It does not lie in staying well enough to accomplish everything on my 'bucket list'...or even a part of it.
It does not lie in reaching peace with my dying. or achieving an epiphany of Heaven.
It's a lot simpler than that.
Victory is continuing to do my best, every day and with every minute, even and especially (as now) when hope seems futile and the darkness of pain gathers me in.
Victory is living for others, because it was never about me.
Victory is facing a failed life, and knowing that it's redeemed by living for one minute...one minute...with a full and open heart.
Victory is being willing to let go of life without grasping, and being willing to fight death without hate.
The ultimate victory is that over despair, and it's one that can be experienced every day.
It doesn't require strength or stamina or learning or Scriptural knowledge, though these certainly help.
You just have to be willing to put aside everything you thought you knew, and embrace the glory and the pain, because they're inseparable. A Jewish carpenter taught me that.
It's kind of cool.
(I don't really have a bucket list...I figure that if you don't value the life you've got enough to prefer it to any 'mountaintop experiences', you're living wrong.)
Music from Chuck Mangione, with Feels So Good....hope it puts a smile on your face.
e pardon my slow response to comments. I do my best, and your comments are really precious to me.
I'm grateful for the energy to have written this. I'm so glad Barbara's stepped in. I'm really not doing well at all.
Thanks to Carol Ashby, Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart is back on Kindle, and will be available in paperback in a few days!
Friends are everything. I couldn't have done it.
Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.
If you can, please do leave a comment. I am trying to answer all, and I am failing, but please know this - I read and treasure each one.
Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.