"It's not," she replied.
A few minutes later I ran out the front door and threw up in the yard, much to the horror of Denali The Happy Husky, who thought I was about to throw up on her.
And then I danced. Moved to the rhythm of a tango playing in my head.
I mean, why not?
Should I really double up in pain and self-pity, moaning about circumstance and beseeching God to help me?
Yes, I ask for His help, and He's giving it.
He's putting music in my head, and leading me in the dance. (That feels really weird for a dude to say.)
And moaning about my fate? Aslong as I can dance with God, how have I NOT got it made?
Here's the music; it's by Richard Rodgers, from the score to Victory At Sea. I'm sure you'll recognize it.
And feel free to dance!
I do ask that you be patient with my slow replies to your comments (which we treasure). I'm trying to stay caught up.
Still hoping to get the new and improved version of Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart up and running in the near future. Just haven't had the energy to do it yet...but if you would like to read it, please say so in your comment and I'd be glad to send you a PDF (which should fit your Kindle).
I have another blog, "Starting The Day With Grace". The focus is a grace quote from someone you might not expect (like, say Mick Jagger) and a short commentary. I hope you'll join me.
Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.
WE MADE A DIFFERENCE!
And marley has a Facebook page! Please drop by to see how happy he is today.
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Saying prayers for you Andrew!
ReplyDeletePaula, thank you so much; they are needed. Going downhill but still enjoying the ride. God is good, and there is joy in the very atmosphere.
DeleteDance like no one is watching my friend. xo
ReplyDeleteWill do, Susan. No one DID watch; Denali The Happy Husky averted her eyes.
DeleteXOXOXOWaggyWaggyWOOF!
The throwing up wasn't delightful in the slightest but the rest of this post was!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the glorious music. Sometimes we need that old instrumental orchestral serenade to take us away from the hurried pace of life that is always running and never dancing.
Dance with bravado, matador Andrew! The bull hasn't got you yet. :D
Tammy, thank you so much!
DeleteI completely agree about the music; sometimes we just need that depth and richness. And yes, in the rapids of life we are running, and dancing seems a lost art.
I aim to bring it back.
I'll keep my feet moving to the gracious music. The bull just keeps on missing me!
So glad you're here!
Andrew, I am so sorry it was a miserable night. But thank you for showing us that we can dance through anything with our God! May He bring you strength to keep on. Praying for you & Barb tonight.
ReplyDeleteJoanne, thank you; I truly appreciate your kind sympathy!
DeleteWe so appreciate your prayers, and I am confident that He will give me strength to face each moment as it comes. He's reliable, our God is! :)
Dancing after throwing up - there's something I've never done! I will have to remember this. What a good perspective.
ReplyDeletePraying for you and Barbara!
rachel, it's not something I would have considered for most of my life...but I figured, well, why not? What can it HURT?
DeleteAnd it did help!
Thank you so much for your prayers, Rachel. You are in ours.
DANCE! YES!
ReplyDeleteNorma, when we meet as golden clouds upon the wind, you have a spot reserved on MY dance card!
DeleteI'm so glad you're able to see God as your dance partner and the source of the song that leads your steps!
ReplyDeleteAnita, thank you...one of my favourite hymns has always been 'Lord Of The Dance', and with that in my blood, so to speak, it's hard NOT to see God as leading the dance!
DeleteAndrew, great post. The picture of dancing in the midst of the pain...beautiful. And knowing that you are asking God for help in the middle of all of this is reassuring. You are not in this alone. And the picture of Him as your dance partner? Love it.
ReplyDeleteI'm continuing to pray for you my friend.
Thank you so much, Jeanne. The really cool thing is that I have never felt alone. As the gyre has dragged me down, there's always been this Cool Dude next to me, and we could joke about it.
DeleteAnd rise up over the whirlpool, and dance!
Thank you so much for the prayers!
So glad for you that you have God and your beloved wife there dancing with you at such an unthinkable time. You are not alone. You also seem to have some wonderful memories to take you to some happy places that may bring back some joy. I am sorry you are suffering so.
ReplyDeleteSophia, thank you for this. It IS good not to be alone, though I think sometimes neither wife nor dogs understand why I'm so cheerful. But I think God gets it, so we're good.
DeleteThere are a lot of happy memories, yes, but I tend not to go there often; life in the moment has too many opportunities for a present gratitude, and I don't want to waste those.
Thank you so much for being here, SOphia; I truly appreciate your company on this road.
Just a short middle-of-the-night-can't-sleep thought: in your acceptance of a path you wouldn't have chosen had you been given the choice, you're showing the rest of us how to live. Thank you for that.
ReplyDeleteBecky, thank you so much for this; you just brightened my day! :)
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