When I do talk, it's usually about life-functional things...like needed groceries or which dog has an upset stomach.
Barbara talks about how she's physically feeling; I almost never do except to say something like, "Hard day."
And that's it. I don't have the words that can describe what life is like now. They'd either be melodrama or an idiotic minimization. It's bad, and I don't want to talk about it.
Living it is enough.
But it's not fair to my caregiver, my wife. While it would be wonderful if she could get by on reading body language and grimaces, it's not a reasonable expectation.
I have to learn the language of the patient.
And I really, really hate itt, because it's one more step into the reality that awaits, that I really want to avoid.
Much to my surprise, I decided to participate in a '31 Days' blogging exercise; rather than interrupt the flow of this post, I have another blog established, "Starting The Day With Grace". The focus is a grace quote from someone you might not expect (like, say Malcolm X) and a short commentary. I hope you'll join me.
Marley update...he's received a lot of support, but STILL NEEDS HELP TO BE SAVED.
WE ARE MAKING A DIFFERENCE!
He's up to nearly 200,000 signatures, but the local authorities are dragging their feet. They think that we'll give up and go away. We won't.
If you have a mment, I'd like to ask you to visit Change.org to consider a petition to free a 'death row dog' who has been separated from his family for ten months over a misunderstanding. Marley was saved from Afghanistan by a US serviceman; please help make sure this story doesn't end in needless tragedy! Marley's gotten a lot of support...but he still needs our help.
If you can, please do leave a comment. I am trying to answer all, and I am failing, but please know this - I read and treasure each one.
Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.