This may be my last Christmas in this life. It's a weird thing to consider, that a year and a bit from now, the decorations may be up, and I won't be here to see them.
It's not unsettling; I may be a bit more accepting of things now.
But the question remains - how do you celebrate a significant day for what may be the last time?
First, there's no way I'm going to talk to Barbara about that one. I don't doubt that she's thought of it, but to drag the topic out into the open does not seem like a good idea. The straightforward nod to this circumstance would cast a shadow over everything, and if she - or I - want to live in the feeling that everything's OK, talking about it would make that impossible.
Subconscious or unstated knowledge is fine, thanks. The sentiment of emphasis would not be helpful.
And there's little one can do, really. I'm no longer able to go to church or entertain visitors, much less visit friends. I can't keep a conversation going. It hurts too much to talk.
And the thought of taking a good number of pictures for posterity is...well...creepy.
So what is one to do?
The best thing seems to just let Christmas be Christmas. To enjoy the season and the day, and to let them develop as they will. To hope for next year, but we're really only granted the moment anyway...
Hmm. All right so far? What do you think?
But the question remains...is there something we could do, something special, that we'd regret if missed?
I can't think of anything. I really ca...
A really big, premium cigar.
There you go.
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