Good Morning!

 In the dark before the dawn

as the world rests from its sins,

something turns the switches on

and The Car Alarm begins.

It starts out with a high-pitched "Yeeee!";

Cocoa's always on it first.

Then Latte joins in, in high G,

enough to make God's eardrums burst.

They rush to wake up all the crew;

Henry rumbles, low and deep,

"Don't know what YOU want to do,

but as for me, I'd rather sleep."

And then yawning, shakes his head,

and joins the whirling dance instead.

Did you know that the human eye can detect a candle flame from 1.6 miles away on a clear, dark night?

Coping with cancer is like this now...in a week that's been worse than ever, regarding just flat-out pain and fatigue, I lean into the small bright things.

Like Chihuahuas before the dawn.

The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is MANY.

Two Chihuahuas in the place 

running through the open door

barking a glad hymn of grace

leave me wanting much more.

Chi's are like potato chips,

you can't have just one or two,

and notwithstanding little nips,

there are more waiting for you

that will very soon arrive

to take places in the pack.

The big dogs have now learned to thrive,

and there is no looking back

to the cooler days long prior

to when they brought Chihuahua Fire.

Just under four minutes.

Music from Vanity Fare, with Early In The Morning.

Sylvia would rather sleep in, and dream of ice cream.

It's OK To Be Scared

 

"Faith and fear can't coexist." - Jesus sweated blood, and still accepted God's will.

"No true Christian fears death." - see the 'sweating blood' thing above...if He was just perturbed about the process and could see to the other side, I kind of don't think Jesus would have been that bummed out.

"Fear ends where faith begins." - not really; fear is the storm-tossed sea, and faith is the life preserver. The storm's not gone; it can be survived.

I do not see how one could face cancer without faith informed by fear, and without fear mitigated...not subdued or eliminated...by faith.

Fear makes me reach out to God.

For me, the need for a constant conversation with God is simply not negotiable. ("Hang on, it's Andrew. Again. (Big sigh)"

The prognosis seems real grim,

and death may take a painful while,

but if you lift your eyes to Him,

there's still sufficient time to smile.

Maybe, yeah, your upraised eyes

are filled with stinging tears,

and then He says, to your surprise,

"Banish not your fears,

for they are now the very things

that brought Me to your side.

They shine as dew on golden wings,

and there's no need to hide

from the terrifying harms,

for you are safe here in My arms."

The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is ACCESS. Hmmm.

If you won't access your fears,

then your courage is a fraud,

the kind bucked up by lots of beers,

and so very far from God.

You have to face and understand

the terror that chokes out your soul,

for only then can trembling hand

be taken, you by Grace made whole.

Look quite carefully at this,

don't think that fear must never be,

for if you do then you will miss

the lesson of Gethsemane,

by which the Christ, though filled with dread,

chose not to flee, obeyed instead.

Four minutes and a bit.

Music from For King And Country, with Shoulders.

Sylvia likes the song. She's got big shoulders.

 In the absence of music (Blogger won't let me link a video on my phone), here are a couple of things pictures of Sylvia, my blog's public face, on an ice-cream run.

To The Child I Had No Chance To Meet

 

This is for everyone who has a child they never met, waiting for them in Heaven.

The precious baby of my heart,
whose earthly life I could not see,
is waiting, yes, to be a part
of the wonder that’s to be.
I think he will be tall and strong,
so gentle, and so fair of face,
and I do hope it won’t be long
until our meeting, full of grace
when he tells me of the time
that while I wept, he played with God,
hopscotch and jump rope divine,
on that playground bright and broad
on which his new-found body thrived
to see the day that I arrived.

The sonnet above was written this morning as a comment for Bob Hostetler's post on the Steve Laube Agency blog,  "6 Joys Of Finishing A Writing Project"

The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is IGNORE.

Today, ignore the sorrow,

today, ignore the lack,

but know that by tomorrow

they will be coming back.

Drink ye hearty, to forget

'till hands are all a-tremor,

but you'll find that even yet

you will still remember

the ghost within that has no face,

that did not come to be,

and yet will demand a place

a-seat upon your knee,

for only thus are wiped away

the tears for he who had no day

Three minutes thirty.

Music from MercyMe, with Homesick.

When we found Sylvia, she had a dead puppy in her womb. She grieved, too.

The Wolf Sleeps Tonight

 

Service Wolves are extra tough,

wandering those cold north woods,

but the service part is rough,

being full of duty-shoulds,

and Belle can really get wiped out,

treating me like not-bright pup,

but you will not see her pout,

even when head won't stay up.

In this case best to let her sleep

(she was perturbed, yes, by the flash)

if my fingers I would keep

(no severed digits in the trash!).

She'll be fine again quite soon,

but now I need to give her room.

Here's a live performance from The Tokens, with The Lion Sleeps Tonight.

It should open in a new window.

The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is FAKE. Interesting, because the thing I was originally going to post was quite serious. It didn't seem 'me'; it felt, well, fake.

I'm really not a serious person, about my own life, or anything. So writing a serious post felt like being way out of my league.

But Barb and our friend Carol really liked it, and Barb tonight prevailed upon me not to abandon the thing.

So, if you're interested, click here and it'll open in a new link.

Sylvia will always wake for ice cream.

The War On Childhood

It's been a rough week. Our beloved fifteen-year-old Boxer Shelby died, I had a relapse of malaria (the ringing in my ears makes conversation almost impossible), and the cancer thing seems to steal more breath each day.

Still and all, I am lucky, for some things are far worse.

Do you remember stickball played

beneath white clouds and smiling sun?

Did you amble through a forest glade,

and do nothing just for fun?

Did Saturday once call to you

with sparkle-laughter in its eyes;

much to see and more to do,

and 'round each hill a new surprise?

But today all this has got to go,

innocence comes to a close.

Now childhood's activist sex-show

and we must kowtow to those 

who demand the world be rid

of what it means to be a kid.

"But whoso shall offend one of these little ones which believe in me, it were better for him that a millstone were hanged about his neck, and that he were drowned in the depth of the sea."

Matthew 18:6

Music from Kenny Loggins, with House On Pooh Corner.

Sylvia understands this. She was denied a puppyhood. We found her abandoned in a summer field, six months old, with a dead puppy in her womb.

My First Music Video, And Cows

 

Do you think one might teach a cow,

so sweet-natured and serene,

to pull a harrow or a plow

or some other farm machine?

Do you think they have the strength

in their shoulders, with no lack,

to bear that burden at some length,

forth and back and forth and back?

Do you think they might enjoy

such trusted focused labour

to work direct in man's employ

and thus return the favour

by which their virtues are made clear

by their Chinese Zodiacal year.

And here's a 'special' treat!

I don't do current photographs, for a number of reasons, but Barb and I put together a Facebook avatar that is accurate to the extreme.

So if you want to know what I look like, click here.

It should open in a new tab.

And, also on Facebook, here's my first music video!

This should also open in a new tab. I hope.

The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is DOUBT.

When doubt invades my hasty heart,

and I know not if I'll be healed,

I find I must become a part

of that which Scripture has revealed,

for God gave up His only Son,

soul of soul and breath of breath

to become the only one

who could redeem us by His death.

And we are thus constrained to walk

the Via Dolorosa road,

to do far more than talk the talk, 

but bend beneath the load

that may be fatally required

that others are by faith inspired.

Less than five minutes. OK.

Very ill as I write this. Fever and chills. Syl is watching over me, pleased not to have to share her ice cream.

 

Taco Belle

 

Belle does love a good taco;

in fact, she finds them great,

and since she is muy flaco,

she don't worry 'bout her weight.

But she thinks God had the dumbs

when He did not address

a dog's need for opposable thumbs

so's not to make a mess,

but that does not deter the beast

from chowing right on down,

and she will not in the least

wear a worried frown,

for she is, yeah, one smart pup,

keeps me around for cleaning up.

The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is RECEIVE. Oh, goody.

The taco that Belle has received

has stirred up envy in the pack,

and there's no way she can deceive

them of their quite obvious lack

of a tasty Latin treat

that is the grace of foodie graces,

so she just sat down to eat

it right before their doggy faces.

Not as dumb as it may seem,

for she is a wolf, you see,

and no canine would ever dream

of giving her the heartfelt glee

of making a food-stealing try,

for that's a nasty way to die.

A bit less than three minutes, there. Makes me feel like the Michael Jordan of sonnetry.

But it's not completely accurate. The Chihuahuas can steal her blind, and she just looks mildly on.

Barb found this video on Facebook. It's appropriate.

Sylvia would like some vanilla ice cream flavoured tacos, please.