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Saturday, May 4, 2013

The Lens

It is in dying that we move to eternal life.

Like most people, I paid lip service to that phrase for most of my life. "Sure," I said. "Makes sense. Have to be reborn, you know, to understand everything. Uh-huh."

I took pride and pleasure in my own strength, and in my own rude health, and thought that sun would never set.

And I thought that if id did set, well, I'd somehow magically get it.

It's dark now. And I somehow, magically, got it.

Ten years ago a surgery gone wrong set loose a chain of events that have led to this day, when something inside my gut is slowly killing me, to the accompaniment of pain that I would never have believed anyone, much less me, could have endured.

It was the best thing that ever happened to me. It made my faith complete.

I know God cares. I hope He'll heal me, but that depends on whether or not it lies within His purpose. Since I don't know His purpose, I don't know what'll happen.

Hasn't happened yet - but every day He's given me the strength, and comfort to go on. It would be easy to give up, mentally - to just say, "It's over. Nothing to aim at, because obviously, there's no time."

Forget the dreams you had when you were healthy.

But I didn't. And I don't. I'm generally a pretty grim person, when you get to know me, and not a Mary-Poppins-Sunshine-on-my-Shoulders-Everything-is-Beautiful sort of guy. I studied war for years, and it studied me.

I haven't given up, and I'm so surprised! It's God, of course.

There's a good chance that I'll be unable to get pain medication in the near future. new laws require expensive blood tests every three months - and not having insurance, there's just no way.

But God will provide the strength to get through that, too.

I wouldn't have been able to see, and live all of this, if my health had stayed intact.

Thank God it didn't.


  1. Darn it, Andrew, why do you have to be so freaking right????

    1. Don't know, but thanks!

      When I've got 365 of these things I'll put them into an e-book.

      Working title, "Mongo Speaks"