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Wednesday, March 6, 2019

Your Dying Spouse 589 - I'm So Tired

I'm just so tired now. More tumours, and they HURT.

Every step is uphill, and breath comes in gasps. I used to sing to the dogs...no longer. Just can't do it.

I want to curl up on the floor, crawl into God's lap and cry in His Embrace. I'm so done.

Well, not really.

The days are sunken, now so hard
to move, to breathe, to live,
and my chest so tumour-marred;
there's little left to give.
Now's the time to court despair,
now's the time for tears;
Oh, dear God, please take me where
You'll heal these ill-starred years!
But now, behold, a sudden breeze
the flags snap in the dawn;
Hope bids me rise from bloody knees
and Faith says, "Boy, keep on."
This may be life's dying light
but I have not yet begun to fight.

Music from Trapt, with Bring It. A bit of audio espresso.

Thanks to Carol Ashby, Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart is back on Kindle, and will be available in paperback soon.

Friends are everything. I couldn't have done it.

Marley, the canine waif from Afghanistan, whom WE helped save, has a Facebook page! Please drop by to see how happy he is today.

Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.


  1. ((((Andrew))))
    Rest until you are ready to move on.
    You will know when that is.

    Annie in Texas

    1. ((((((Annie!))))))

      I will. Thank you so much for this! <3

  2. Praying so much for you. May He be such a precious Living Hope for you through these long days. Thank you for continuing to share from the hard places!

    1. Bettie, thank you so much for your prayers; we've been praying for you, too.

      He is the Living Hope of my days. It's very hard, but that's OK. I'm not alone.

  3. You're still here for a reason - maybe the way you inspire all of us.

    1. Jan...wow. You do me such great honour. Thank you.

  4. I am praying for strength and perseverance for you as you carry on so faithfully in the midst of incredible suffering.

    1. Rachel, thank you so much for these prayers...they are spot-on as to what's needed!

      And we have kept you in our prayers.

  5. I wish to write encouraging words to you but I'm at a loss. You've been valiant through every crises. A couple of years ago I thought you wouldn't make it much longer and here you are, still fighting, and still carrying on and making a difference. It's remarkable and beautiful. Life is beautiful. The suffering doesn't change that. May God bless you and keep you, may His face shine upon you.

    1. My dear Norma...thank you so much for this.

      By all rights, yes, I should be dea, but something keeps me going. Breath comes hard, movement comes hard, but my heart still soars.

      I figure I owe this to the people wholove me.

      People like you.

      I am so grateful.