Everyone has days, weeks, or months that life becomes more then our human capacity can handle. I realize the Bible says that God won't give us more than we can handle. But there are times I honestly thinks He's out of His mind. Anyone else been there? Be honest!
I accept but don't understand God's Sovereignty, His special rules for the balance of life and the universe. As a long-term caregiver, I'm at the point of thinking even God's gotta be willing to make an expectation. What in God's creation are we doing wrong that would keep Him from making this situation better or give the sufferer ultimate relief.
It was overwhelming a very long time ago to watch Andrew slowly lose abilities, joys, and life satisfaction. Yes it happened incrementally, but what is the point now? The increments are smaller fractions of lose, but lose feels greater to Andrew. The frustrations higher, the emotions unstable.
I realize we haven't even hit the additional worst for a homebound person. God help me even more then!
For those who have additional family, freinds, or community service support to elevate the stress, I hope you value the blessings. As many of you know, I'm sole caregiver and provider with no feasible possibility of assistance. So life easily becomes beyond overwhelming, not incapacitating. Although concern lives in the recesses of my mind that I may not be able to physically handle all the demands someday. After all, I'm only one human with limitations too.
Once again, I have no real answers to a dilemma. But I do again ask for each of us to consider how can you better prepare yourself, your lifestyle, etc. so life could be easily adjusted? Adjust for your needs yes, but more for the caregiver(s). Daily life needs a simplicity for those who provide the essentials of your life one day.
Music for today is from Mercy Me, with Even If.
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