And so it goes, mainly downhill. Well, physically.
Days get pretty limited by a lot of trouble breathing when I try to move, and a lot of coughing thereby, which leads to a lot of puking.
My cup runneth over, all right, but let's don't go there, and you're welcome.
And why am I so happy?
I love my days, and even love the long sleepless nights (do you know that wonderful feeling of sliding back under the covers after a cold 3am dog walk?).
I love the beer that cuts the nausea so I can have at least a small meal. The way my body processes alcohol now, I don't even get mildly drunk, darn it, but BEER is my One Word for 2023.
I love Barb and the dogs and the cat and you, the people who drop by to read this stuff, share the trip, and offer encouragement.
Love's a choice, I guess. The best choice of all.
When the push doth come to shove,
I really love my wife,
so I'm buying her a copy of
The Porpoise-Driven Life.
With this I will go real big,
and think it would be cool
to alter the backyard and dig
a deep wide swimming pool
in with the big fish could enjoy
water-walking on his tail
(he, assuming he's a boy)
and round the pool would be a rail
to allow anointing, porpoise-fashion
with a whole great lot of splashin'.
The Five Minute Friday prompt this week is ASSUME. I assume I can do this.
People will not give me room,
and I'm often pressed,
because they feel free to assume
that I am real depressed.
"Talk it out, " they like to say,
"tell me how you're feeling down."
When I say that I'm OK,
they shake their heads and frown,
thinking I am in denial,
delusional, or am on drugs.
Then they really hit their style,
and offer smoochy teary hugs
while I try to make it clear
that I really want a beer.
Four minutes fifteen of veracity. I really am OK, but a case of Fosters ale sure wouldn't go amiss.
Music from Thirty Seconds To Mars, with Do Or Die.
Sylvia says, "Ice cream. Don't forget to say you love ice cream. Comes before the cat."
Andrew i would love to see that swimming pool! Yes, love is a choice. I made peace with my sleepless nights and now we enjoy each other. Beer and I are arch enemies. You can have mine. I'll share the ice cream with Sylvia, if she let me. Love the song...yes, the story goes on and on and on, and so do my prayers for you.
ReplyDeleteI'll take your beer, and rent a backhoe.
DeleteThat would be me.
ReplyDeleteMary, I kinda figured. Your voice is distinctive, and loved.
DeleteYou have a great, upbeat, positive attitude. To God be the glory. Many in your circumstances would not handle it nearly as well as you do. I am sorry you are so sick. What kind of cancer do you have? You have been sick for years and yet you continue to persevere, and write, and encourage others. May God give you strength for each new day and help you sleep at night. Terri #4 FMF
ReplyDeleteTerri, thank you. The c's are pancreatic and non-Hodgkins lymphoma, and I have no idea why I am still alive. Neither did my doctor, who died recently. Outliving your doctor's a joke that's not funny when it happens. He was a great guy.
DeleteFor what it's worth, he put down my survival to very high fitness that I maintained through my life, a strong and upbeat character, cigars, and red wine (no kidding).
I put it down to love. I love my homies too darn much too leave.
Well, even as your body fades, your spirit, your mind, your hope is still alive and well, friend. As ever, you're quite an inspiration. I hope you and the gang have a peaceful weekend. Bless you.
ReplyDeleteLinda, thank you so much for this. As earthly light dims, God's love shines all the brighter.
DeleteAndrew, you truly are a testimony to God's grace in the midst of pain and suffering. I am inspired by your perseverance and ability to see the up-side in the most difficult places in life. You're in my prayers.
ReplyDelete~ One of your homies, Cindie
Cindie, I am so grateful for your loving words, and for your prayers.
DeleteI look forward to reading your poems (and progress) every week.
ReplyDeleteRhonda, you just made my day!
DeleteAndrew, you inspire us all to look at the bright side of life and enjoy some moments of every day. I so look forward to FMF especially due to you! :)
ReplyDeleteGosh... I am so honoured!
DeleteThank you, Andrew, for your consistent and constant faith. I noted the way that you assumed, so you did! Thanks again for making Fridays special.
ReplyDeleteJust popped in from #13
Heather, I have no words but for a Thank You that comes from the bottom of my heart.
Deleteenjoy your fosters Andrew... if we lived closer my hubster would join you. :) FMF14
ReplyDeleteAnnette, Fosters is God's own beer, and I'll save a can for your husband if he's ever in New Mexico.
DeleteWe can never assume what a day may hold, it could be the best day ever, the worst day in a long time, or a mixture of the two. Yet, His grace abounds to us and we are never alone for He is always with us. Beer is an interesting WOTY. Ha! ~Lisa, FMF#15
ReplyDeleteLisa, I think all days are really a mixture... the best days as a call to pride, the worst as a call to grace.
DeleteThat swimming pool and porpoise sounds very entertaining! As usual, your humor and honesty is a blessing to us who read, even as we hope to be a blessing to you. Cheers, mate! I'll say an extra prayer for you whenever I enjoy a glass from now on.
ReplyDeleteKym, this community is truly a blessing, one that keeps me going week to week.
DeleteAndrew, I'm so glad the beer helps. It sucks that you are struggling so much physically, but I'm so glad you grace us with your faith-filled attitude and your words every week, both here and on our pages. I'm very blessed. Kath, visiting from FMF #2 this week.
ReplyDeleteKath, thank you so much! I'm really so grateful for the privilege of having met you through this medium.
DeleteOh Andrew. God bless you and your positivity. Deirdre FMF #19
ReplyDeleteDeirdre, thank you...and I love your blog. Just wish my phone would let me comment!
DeleteAndrew, This is in response to your comment on today's Steve Laube post on their blog. I am the Editor in Chief of an online quarterly magazine called "God and Nature", and I would love to publish some of your sonnets there. The magazine is sponsored by the American Scientific Affiliation, the oldest and largest organization of Christians in the sciences. We have several thousand readers, and we publish mostly essays, as well as poetry, photos etc. If you are interested please let me know here or send a note to me on the contact page of my website sygarte.com. Peace and blessings, your biggest fan,
ReplyDeleteSy
Sy, I am so honoured, and delighted that we got in touch on this.
DeleteSorry Andrew, I can't find your reply. My email is sygarte@gmail.com.
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