Your Dying Spouse 365 - I Live The Impossible Dream {FMF}

Apparently Satan didn't like my Letter To Death, from last week, 'cos he's send a host of new afflictions, and vastly greater pain. The lymph nodes in my armpits, back, neck, and groin are involved. Breathing is like being stabbed, and using the lav is like...well, never mind. Don't try to picture it.

Unfortunately for him, though, the devil's pretty stupid, and he ended up bringing a knife to a gunfight.

I've seen pain, I've lived pain, and I have beaten pain. This is worse..sure, it's way worse...but it's just more of the same. A beasting that eventually numbs you, and when it does, watch out, because while the Lord claims vengeance as His own, I figure that sometimes he subcontracts.

And living well is truly the best revenge.

See, I love my life. Yes, it's a nastily painful and messy (see lav comment above) and screwed up life, but it's mine. And I get to dedicate it to whomever I so choose.

There are those who have counseled that I curse God and die. I'll listen to that advice...once. After that, it's a date with an oral surgeon and a diet of milkshakes for a few months. Got the memo, there?

To paraphrase Puddleglum the Marshwiggle (from C.S. Lewis' The SIlver Chair), I'm on God's side, even if I can;t see hide nor hair of Him.

(Does God have hide...or hair? On the latter, is He...way cool...a celestial Bruce Willis?)

I'm dedicating my fight to the good that He represents, even when He seems to have abandoned the whole thing.

Comfort be damned; I will embrace the pain and the humiliation and the despair, and I will turn it into my own body's burnt offering for a good that I refuse to disbelieve even when I can't see it.

You lose, Satan. Big time. Accept it. (The Five Minute Friday word is accept.)

God's got my back in eternity.

And I've got His back here.

I do ask that you be patient with my slow replies to your comments (which we treasure). I'm trying to stay caught up.

Still hoping to get the new and improved version of Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart up and running in the near future. Just haven't had the energy to do it yet...but if you would like to read it, please say so in your comment and I'd be glad to send you a PDF (which should fit your Kindle).

I have another blog, "Starting The Day With Grace". The focus is a grace quote from someone you might not expect (like, say Mick Jagger) and a short commentary. I hope you'll join me.

Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.

WE MADE A DIFFERENCE!

And marley has a Facebook page! Please drop by to see how happy he is today.

If you can, please do leave a comment. I am trying to answer all, and I am failing, but please know this - I read and treasure each one.

Below are my recent releases on Kindle -please excuse their presence in the body of the blog. I haven't the energy to get them up as 'buttons' in the sidebar. You can click on the covers to go to the Amazon links.