Your Dying Spouse 485 - A Healed Heart {FMF}

So the fight gets harder. The week since a near-death event has seen new pain, new symptoms, and fatigue that makes every step seem uphill, like I'm forced to walk some hellish Moebius Strip.

And I love life more than ever. I'm happier than I've ever been.

And I'm at peace.

Cancer is only a part of life. Granted, it can seem a pretty huge part when you're doubled over in a pool of blood you've just spit up,and there's no one around and if you're going to get up you have to do it yourself.

But as I was doing just this, recently (fortunately outside, on the dirt!) I noticed a green stone filled with shiny flecks. Don't now what it was, but it made me feel better.

Grace does abound, but I hadn't been looking at God's freely-given gifts. I was only interested in the grace I could make myself.

And that, dear friends, is the flight-path of the famed Equatorial Concentric Bird, which flies in ever-tightening circles until it disappears up its own...uh, tailpipe.

I was so busy washing the window that I never bothered to look through it.

And now at the apparent end of so many things, comes the payoff.

I looked around, and saw so many gentle blessings, none of which I could ever have earned.

I looked within, and saw something I had never expected to see.

A heart that's at peace.

And so, I'm still in the fight. But my heart has finally healed, and when the end does come - and I am working hard to make sure that day is a long way off, yet - that healed and whole heart is what I will carry to Christ, and I will thank Him for keeping it safe.

Music from Switchfoot, with Love Alone Is Worth The Fight.

Please pardon my slow response to comments. I do my best, and your comments are really precious to me. Barb is answering many of them now. I'm running on fumes, if you don't mind a macho metaphor.

I'm grateful for the energy to have written this. I'm so glad Barbara's stepped in for many of my posts. I'm really not doing well at all.

Thanks to Carol Ashby, Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart is back on Kindle, and will be available in paperback soon.

Friends are everything. I couldn't have done it.

Marley update... been moved to a sanctuary, and Bay County will revise their 'dangerous dog' codes.

WE MADE A DIFFERENCE!

And marley has a Facebook page! Please drop by to see how happy he is today.

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