Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Your Dying Spouse 10 - Missing You

This is personal.

One of the reasons I am fighting hard to stay alive is that I would miss my wife. I don't want to say goodbye, I don't want to miss any tomorrows.

I love her care and kindness, even when it results in frustration and anger and resentment and tears.

I love her gentle touch. I love her having to shake me back from the edge of death.

I love her strength and courage, to walk into a new career when I was unable to go on. Her optimism gives me strength, and the courage, myself, to keep trying.

I love her patience, when projects I couldn't complete bark her shins and get on her nerves. She doesn't relegate these artifacts of a past expertise to the barn. She honours them, and honours me.

I believe that when I die I will be safe in Jesus's arms.

But I want to be safe in Barbara's arms.

We're linked to Wedded Wednesday at www.messymarriage.com.
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13 comments:

  1. Linda StollMay 27, 2015 at 3:34 AM

    I love that you love her so.

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  2. UnknownMay 27, 2015 at 2:28 PM

    Beautiful, Andrew! You are blessed to have Barbara, and she is blessed to have you...prayers for both of you as you walk this journey together. And soon, you will be safe in Jesus' arms - reluctantly...so sweet wyat you said about wanting to be safe in Barbara's arms instead.

    Thank you for sharing your heart and soul!

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  3. elizabethMay 29, 2015 at 9:23 PM

    I'm here for the first time from the Weekend Brew. I need to sit down for the long haul and read through your posts, hard though it may be. God be with you and your wife in a very real and precious way.

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    1. AndrewMay 30, 2015 at 3:30 PM

      Elizabeth, thank you so much! I hope that you'll find something of value in them, on your journey, or in the assistance of another.

      I am glad you're here.

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  4. MaryMay 30, 2015 at 2:04 PM

    What a beautiful love you share! Love how you fight for life and for your wife. Blessings!

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    1. AndrewMay 30, 2015 at 3:31 PM

      Thanks so much, Mary. Today has been a struggle; I have been carried.

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  5. BARBIEMay 30, 2015 at 10:13 PM

    Andrew, such love and adoration you have for your wife, as I am sure she does you as well. Keep fighting my friend, you are worth it!

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    1. AndrewJune 1, 2015 at 9:23 AM

      Thank you! And I will keep fighting. Take a lot of killing yet, I will.

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  6. Shelli LittletonJune 1, 2015 at 7:46 AM

    That's the sweetest romance novel I've ever read. Beautiful.

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  7. blestbutstrestJune 4, 2015 at 3:49 PM

    Your love for your wife is so beautiful, Andrew--and how knightly of you to proclaim it to the world in such a public way! Thank you for linking up at #InspireMeMonday!

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