tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post8079760754404181343..comments2024-03-28T11:09:46.338-07:00Comments on Blessed Are The Pure Of Heart: Your Dying Spouse 212- I Promise ThisAndrewhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-72745506941524417122016-10-02T06:30:42.606-07:002016-10-02T06:30:42.606-07:00I'm so sorry for your loss. This is a heart-wr...I'm so sorry for your loss. This is a heart-wrenching piece and although I know it's incredibly difficult, try not to be so hard on yourself. You didn't intend for that to happen. Tragedies happen and you are suffering enough. Peace and blessings to you and your wife. mkvecchittohttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16030774487939366760noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-63257058670258698422016-09-29T05:46:26.181-07:002016-09-29T05:46:26.181-07:00Andrew, my friend, we ALL have "screwed up&qu...Andrew, my friend, we ALL have "screwed up"; we all make mistakes, and perhaps those mistakes end up hurting (or inconveniencing?) others...yet, we must bounce back the best we can, and go forward! I am happy to hear your "3 promises"...and that you WILL continue your life and continue to share your words - your heart and soul...you are appreciated and loved and prayers are continuing...always!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16954512718777249848noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-47726112986484736562016-09-28T22:23:35.549-07:002016-09-28T22:23:35.549-07:00Pay it forward. Pay it forward. Meridian Womanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13415904614368419453noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-35169740633593918702016-09-28T19:29:49.640-07:002016-09-28T19:29:49.640-07:00Lynette, I apologise for those words. I had not ri...Lynette, I apologise for those words. I had not right to say that; it was something, a moto statement, that was hammered into me in training, because it was recognized that we 'schoolboys' might one day find ourselves in a situation in which we might be tempted to kill ourselves. Please, please accept my apology. My words were very wrong.<br /><br />And please accept my gratitude for your prayers.Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-76976222661454009922016-09-28T19:27:47.569-07:002016-09-28T19:27:47.569-07:00Jan, your words and prayers humble me, and I am so...Jan, your words and prayers humble me, and I am so very, very grateful.Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-66187785967422042512016-09-28T19:27:17.011-07:002016-09-28T19:27:17.011-07:00Gayl, thank you for these lovely words. I'm so...Gayl, thank you for these lovely words. I'm so grateful.<br /><br />Showing up the past few days has been hard, but harder still would have been to turn my back on the need for learning, and for trying to help others where I can, through my writing. It's all I've got.<br /><br />I'm trusting God to give me the words and the strength to keep going.<br /><br />And thank you so much for the lovely song!Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-60845258181479606702016-09-28T19:24:23.058-07:002016-09-28T19:24:23.058-07:00Susan, your last few words made me cry. Good tears...Susan, your last few words made me cry. Good tears, but sad ones too, because I would kind of like to be there now.<br /><br />And there are no magic words, except for there.<br /><br />"Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do."<br /><br />xo back to you, my friendAndrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-24179308026605002062016-09-28T19:21:14.266-07:002016-09-28T19:21:14.266-07:00Mary, thank you so much. Right now it's hard t...Mary, thank you so much. Right now it's hard to feel worthy of anything, but the 'feeling' isn't necessary for the duty...and the duty is to write this out and find the deeper lessons that can be shared.<br /><br />It's going to hurt, but I will be there.Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-79337121871701080592016-09-28T19:20:02.966-07:002016-09-28T19:20:02.966-07:00Tammy, thank you so much for these kind, loving, a...Tammy, thank you so much for these kind, loving, and faith-filled words.<br /><br />You are, of course, right, in that the greatest injury was to pride. I didn't meet my obligations, and the consequences - visited on another - were terrible.<br /><br />Would I treat Barbara the way I'm feeling toward myself, had this been on her? No, of course not, and I'm thus violating "love thy neighbour AS thyself".<br /><br />I won't climb back onto the cross, but I will find a way to make this all make sense. Writing's the only way to do that.<br /><br />And thank you for the video link!Andrewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13230537202427640540noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-38880993170117889712016-09-28T18:53:20.427-07:002016-09-28T18:53:20.427-07:00While I hurt for your pain & suffering, Andrew...While I hurt for your pain & suffering, Andrew, I must say this. As a momma who has lost a son to suicide I disagree with your statement that "suicide is a coward's way out". In my heart of hearts I don't believe that Shane was a coward. I think he was just convinced that his life wasn't ever going to get any better and he thought the people in his life would be better off without him. I'm praying for you still, friend.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-66154859635923109782016-09-28T15:58:24.797-07:002016-09-28T15:58:24.797-07:00You are a courageous hero. Courage doesn't mea...You are a courageous hero. Courage doesn't mean not being afraid. It means doing the right thing in spite of your fear. And I won't stop praying for you.Janet Ann Collinshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13234310280477491538noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-31460908036833882112016-09-28T11:15:14.861-07:002016-09-28T11:15:14.861-07:00Oh, Andrew, you almost make me cry. I can't be...Oh, Andrew, you almost make me cry. I can't begin to imagine how hard life is for you and Barb. You keep showing up. You keep being real. You admit your struggles. You still hang on to the truth that God has forgiven and He loves you. He has a reason for your continuing to be here. You may not see it, but He does. Please hang on to Him. Give him all your sorrows and let Him bring you peace. This is a beautiful song by Michael Card: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mg91IWQuvJc It's called "Come Lift Up Your Sorrows."Gayl Wrighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02564461995154051353noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-44127872980291424032016-09-28T03:13:21.530-07:002016-09-28T03:13:21.530-07:00Yup, what Tammy said. But I get the feelings and u...Yup, what Tammy said. But I get the feelings and understand the self-loathing. I pray healing over that. It only hurts you and makes us want to grope for the magic words, of which there are none. So I take to singing, Jesus loves you this I know for the bible tells me so...and dogs run free in the fields of heaven. xoSusanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16134491640460300081noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-20551989575547625502016-09-27T20:22:55.786-07:002016-09-27T20:22:55.786-07:00Praying fervently! Believing and hoping you find y...Praying fervently! Believing and hoping you find yourself worthy. Finally your writing is an important voice that needs to be heard. Your raw vulnerability never fails to teach me. Blessings!Maryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11281912720738542321noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-58908363120116929402016-09-27T20:12:35.218-07:002016-09-27T20:12:35.218-07:00P.S. I think Satan is crouched down, whispering li...P.S. I think Satan is crouched down, whispering lies to you. Please watch this video. Listen to the words. Let truth ring clear.<br />https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E6MzgVsP2uE<br />Peter became the Rock on which Christ built his church. You are still a kingdom player, sir. The more humiliation we endure, the more humbly we allow Him to be glorified in us. Not understanding his fascination with us flawed humans, but eternally grateful. :)Tammysincerityhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16959015797818229243noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4095822388315899381.post-39958062724590395172016-09-27T20:08:31.337-07:002016-09-27T20:08:31.337-07:00Andrew,
oh the curiosity grows. Why could/would ...Andrew,<br /> oh the curiosity grows. Why could/would you hate yourself? What error could cause you to despise living so? That you would not want to live with yourself? That you presume nobody else would want to live with you if you can't live with you?<br />Sure, we don't know. You don't even owe us, really, the details.<br /><br />Can I tell you though? You did it. You broke that rotten egg called pride WIDE open! Isn't it horrible? It reminds me of when Jesus asks them to roll away the stone to Lazarus' tomb. They don't want to. "But Lord, he stinketh."<br /><br />This was me. In the very recent past. God was opening that pride "boil" that was festering. For some reason, I think being descriptive here will make you feel better. Forgive me, all the rest of you.<br /><br />See, we have this illusion of bathing and deodorant and perfume and cologne that makes us think we're not dying. We are dying.<br />But, we can die to pride and embrace that sin dying as well.<br />Jesus said "it is finished". <br /><br />So when that pride was revealed in me recently...eeew. I was so ashamed! This, though. This ashamed, broken, can't lift our heads because we're at the bottom? This is the one who can receive it ALL. The grace. The mercy. You see a debt that needs payment. And you're broke.<br /><br />You are not pretending. I won't gloss over errors, Andrew, but you're being real here. That's what keeps people coming back. We have been championing you for two years. We're not quitting on you. Even if you were horrible. You feel guilty. That's a good sign. <br /><br />Just please, a gentle loving word. Jesus was already crucified for this one. Please don't climb back up on that cross.<br /><br />*hug*<br />Love,<br />TammyTammysincerityhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16959015797818229243noreply@blogger.com