So much of Scripture should offer comfort, but doesn't...the assurance that all things work together for good is a bit thin when one is both vomiting blood and having the runs. At the same time.
Sorry, but that's reality.
And you know it won't get better.
For the caregiver, you leave for work in the morning, and you don't know what you'll find on your return.
Sometimes it's ugly, and always, you have to gird yourself for the worst.
It never lets up.
There's an answer, but it may be hard to hear, much less accept.
It's not about you.
The trials you go through, the pain and the heartache...their primary use may be as an example to others.
What you do, right now, when your husband or wife has collapsed and you're waiting for the ambulance, or whether you're dying and alone and you can't reach the phone...those may be the vital link in someone else's development, or sustaining of faith.
Your example may not change the world, but it can change a small part of it.
And it's hard to let go of the thought that God is going to shield you from pain and from the peculiar heartache of living in a place that will soon be lacking the sound of your spouse's voice. It's hard to look around your home and realize..."One day soon, he or she is not going to be here...and this place, influenced by our shared life and routines...it will change."
It's one of the worst things about a protracted death.
But in all of that, you still have the choice to live well.
You have the chance to transcend your situation, and leave a legacy for others.
Don't fail. Please.
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